Today was a pretty easy day. A long day, but i don't mind my work so it's all good. i spent my hours playing w/toddlers and reading an infinate number of Dr. Seuss books. (it's all for the greater good baby, all for the greater good..baha)
I had a chance to spend some 1 on 1 time w/ a co-worker. that was pretty cool. i pretty much blew her mind w/ the funky details of my life. But i never mind talking ab my past bc it gives me a chance to tell the happily ever after ending.
I thought ab my son a lot today. of course i think of him everyday. but today more than the usual. It's so comforting to know that he has a chance for success. but sometimes i am still left wishing i could snuggle w/ him or maybe rock him to sleep. or maybe build some cool stuff w/ his blocks or push him on the swings. i wish i could hear him learning to talk and learning to do new things everyday.
Adoption is self-less. end of story.
to be w/o him is hard. but to see his life unfold in a stable and healthy way is overwhelmingly exciting. i wonder what i would be like if i could have started w/all the advantages that he is getting to start with.
i've been spending this evening on the teetering edge of what to do tonight. Most of my mind tells me to go out for one innocent night of drunken fun. a smaller portion of my mind warns me of what that will cost. i think i'll stay home tonight and study for a bio test on monday. yea...cuz that's what all the coolest people are doing. ha!
no point to this blog. no heavy message on my heart. just looking for an open outlet.
"success means you are at the right place at the right time doing the right thing."
-Chuck D. Pierce
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